First of all, I wish you readers a happy new year. A new year at long last, too. What an eventful year 2009 had been for me, though not necessarily in a good way. I didn't get to celebrate Christmas/New Year personally because my grandmother had recently passed away. I have been too busy attending to her funeral and a celebration just didn't cross my mind. She was 90 and she suffered a heart attack. But was it tragic? No. A peaceful death occurs now and then, and hers was definitely one. I know it - because I was there to witness.
Seeing a loved one die was something new for me. When I was younger there was another death in the family, which was of my grandfather's. I was really young back then and obviously it didn't affect me much. Now that I'm all grown up, it made me realise something fundamental - we are all going to die someday. Maybe not yet, but it'll come. We know this, but we never really think about it. No matter who we are, how strong and healthy, we eventually will succumb to death without exception. And in most cases we aren't allowed to choose when we die. The gods must be fucking with us. And we have no choice but to take it. Of course, I do not want to die now. I'm very much afraid of death at this very moment because I've not experienced the world enough to say 'that's enough'. My life has barely begun.
So now that we've established the notion that we all WILL die, what can we do about our lives? Are we going to sit and wait for the gods to take us away on their whim? Or do we make the most of it before they actually do that? Obviously if you have the least bit of intelligence you would choose the latter. So there it is - my resolution for 2010. Making the most of what's left of measly human life. It's going to be hectic, but at the very least it must not be wasted. Life's too short to be wasting time. Happy New Year, all.
Seeing a loved one die was something new for me. When I was younger there was another death in the family, which was of my grandfather's. I was really young back then and obviously it didn't affect me much. Now that I'm all grown up, it made me realise something fundamental - we are all going to die someday. Maybe not yet, but it'll come. We know this, but we never really think about it. No matter who we are, how strong and healthy, we eventually will succumb to death without exception. And in most cases we aren't allowed to choose when we die. The gods must be fucking with us. And we have no choice but to take it. Of course, I do not want to die now. I'm very much afraid of death at this very moment because I've not experienced the world enough to say 'that's enough'. My life has barely begun.
So now that we've established the notion that we all WILL die, what can we do about our lives? Are we going to sit and wait for the gods to take us away on their whim? Or do we make the most of it before they actually do that? Obviously if you have the least bit of intelligence you would choose the latter. So there it is - my resolution for 2010. Making the most of what's left of measly human life. It's going to be hectic, but at the very least it must not be wasted. Life's too short to be wasting time. Happy New Year, all.
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